Is there something wrong with me or…? Like literally no one wants to hang out with me today. I feel extremely ignored! The only people that might want to see me today are with their boyfriends and i’m not going to be a third wheel by choice. I hate days like this, I take it so personal and I can’t help but to think that there’s something wrong with me and that’s the reason people hate me. I see them ignoring me as them hating me. I don’t know. Ugh. Leave me alone to suffer.
so i cut myself today again. i don’t really regret it, though i am proud that i managed three months without. i guess it was my mum who triggered me to do it (as usual). this time it was because of maths. i’m rubbish at maths and i know it, she knows it too. she literally spent two hours today telling me how i don’t have a future and shit because of maths.if i don’t pass this class i’m basically going to fail life. she even cancelled my meeting with a psychiatrist because she felt like i need to put revising as first priority. does she not realise that i am suicidal and if were to fucking die, maths wouldn’t be important anymore. i honestly think i might hate her.
I need to rant ok?
But why does Harry check Louis out and all the fucking time? I’m not saying that Larry is real but let’s be honest here, you don’t look at your friends like that. I have both guy and girl-friends and I have literally never given any of them a full body check. Let alone 30 times (only on camera). I’m not even a die-hard Larry shipper and even I find this weird. Idk maybe Harry just got a cute crush on Louis or something.